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I'm new to this forum, so I hope I do everything correctly to get an answer because I am deeply in need for some guidance.
I also hope I can explain myself in the clearest way.
I'm a 20 year old student attending the first year in Computer and Electronics engineering.
Since I was in high school I was always deeply passionate about physics, so much that I also tried to study physics to participate to the physics olympiads. I wanted to pursue Physics as my career choice because that became my sort of "happy obsession": my desire to imitate the people I admired the most (all mathematicians and scientists).
However, in the last year of high school I started panicking because everyone around me discouraged my choice.
My family was reluctant and didn't think I could be a "successful" physicst (whathever that may mean) and I would risk being precarious for a lot of time. My insecurities grew stronger and my anxiety larger (I suffer from anxiety).
So I started exploring the engineering path instead. I asked questions to professors, went to workshops, watched engineering youtube videos and I was not extremely excited by the idea of working in industry. The idea of building things excited me for sure but I was still very unsure about it. I'd decided to enroll in a relatively small university because I couldn't afford to go to bigger ones (it was also very close to home, I live in Europe). The program of the courses seemed stimulating and sort of "complete" in terms of math and science content (I didn't have much choice anyway so I just tried to choose the best option).
What I wanted was to have a rigorous math and physics foundation. That would have been enough to quench my curiosity. I would have felt ok if I didn't do general relativity or astrophysics, I just wanted to face the engineering field in a "scientist way", I hope that makes sense.
I had decided to try my first period in the engineering course and, if it didn't convince me, I would have then switched to physics that same semester.
Unfortunately, the courses turned out to be very different from what I had expected. Not in terms of content, but in the way that content was delivered: the subjects were treated in the most superficial way. It was like no other engineering school lecture I had attended to other bigger universities.
Furthermore, my university's burocracy didn't allow me to switch (I had to switch only the next year, even If I passed the physics course's entrance exam) and I broke apart.
I tried so hard to do as many exams as possible to switch directly to the second year (I aced all the exams I could) but apparently the way math and physics are done in my engineering course is no near to the way math and physics are done in the physics department, so little to no exams will be recognized.
Even worse, I got ill along the way so I couldn't even complete my first university year as a whole.
I feel like a failure. I have worked very hard but anything worked out as expected. I have always aced my courses and did everything on time so this was a big shock for me.
I have the impression that no matter what I will do, what happened this year will damage my future "career" or job opportunities irreversibly.
My body is still weak and the anxiety that I have isn't helping at all to make a choice for the next year.
I really do want to explore electronics and computer engineering, I've grown a genuine curiosity and interest towards those subjects as well. but I don't want to abandon the maths and physics foundation, because I think they are essential to be a good engineer/physicist.
I am asking for reassurance (it there's any) and advice. Here are my questions:
1) will "losing" a uni year conprimse my "career"/job as a whole? By career i mean the job opportunities to "prestigious industries" and/or the possibility to do an (eventual) phd.
2) I still have difficulties deciding between physics or engineering path because where I live there is no Engineering Physics nor Applied Physics so I have to just pick one or another and compromise. The job market is terrible where I live and I am really afraid that picking up physics wouldn't be the wisest of choices, even if I like it. I like exploring math and physics in the most rigorous way, yet as I got informed I am also curious about building circuits for rockets/medical devices/cars/satellites/quantum technologies.
Do you think I fall more in the physics or engineering spectrum? (I am really struggling in understanding this so maybe a comparison would help me in a clearer way)
3) Should I change university for my next years ? Due to my health problems I can't go very far, but there is another uni "near" where I live that could be an alternative option.
In the end, I am just trying to understand what is the best decision for me and for my future.
I am willing to work very hard and smart to "catch up" but I really need to hear someone's opinion on this or else I think I could really break down.
Thank you for all the people that will have the patience to read and answer this.
I also hope I can explain myself in the clearest way.
I'm a 20 year old student attending the first year in Computer and Electronics engineering.
Since I was in high school I was always deeply passionate about physics, so much that I also tried to study physics to participate to the physics olympiads. I wanted to pursue Physics as my career choice because that became my sort of "happy obsession": my desire to imitate the people I admired the most (all mathematicians and scientists).
However, in the last year of high school I started panicking because everyone around me discouraged my choice.
My family was reluctant and didn't think I could be a "successful" physicst (whathever that may mean) and I would risk being precarious for a lot of time. My insecurities grew stronger and my anxiety larger (I suffer from anxiety).
So I started exploring the engineering path instead. I asked questions to professors, went to workshops, watched engineering youtube videos and I was not extremely excited by the idea of working in industry. The idea of building things excited me for sure but I was still very unsure about it. I'd decided to enroll in a relatively small university because I couldn't afford to go to bigger ones (it was also very close to home, I live in Europe). The program of the courses seemed stimulating and sort of "complete" in terms of math and science content (I didn't have much choice anyway so I just tried to choose the best option).
What I wanted was to have a rigorous math and physics foundation. That would have been enough to quench my curiosity. I would have felt ok if I didn't do general relativity or astrophysics, I just wanted to face the engineering field in a "scientist way", I hope that makes sense.
I had decided to try my first period in the engineering course and, if it didn't convince me, I would have then switched to physics that same semester.
Unfortunately, the courses turned out to be very different from what I had expected. Not in terms of content, but in the way that content was delivered: the subjects were treated in the most superficial way. It was like no other engineering school lecture I had attended to other bigger universities.
Furthermore, my university's burocracy didn't allow me to switch (I had to switch only the next year, even If I passed the physics course's entrance exam) and I broke apart.
I tried so hard to do as many exams as possible to switch directly to the second year (I aced all the exams I could) but apparently the way math and physics are done in my engineering course is no near to the way math and physics are done in the physics department, so little to no exams will be recognized.
Even worse, I got ill along the way so I couldn't even complete my first university year as a whole.
I feel like a failure. I have worked very hard but anything worked out as expected. I have always aced my courses and did everything on time so this was a big shock for me.
I have the impression that no matter what I will do, what happened this year will damage my future "career" or job opportunities irreversibly.
My body is still weak and the anxiety that I have isn't helping at all to make a choice for the next year.
I really do want to explore electronics and computer engineering, I've grown a genuine curiosity and interest towards those subjects as well. but I don't want to abandon the maths and physics foundation, because I think they are essential to be a good engineer/physicist.
I am asking for reassurance (it there's any) and advice. Here are my questions:
1) will "losing" a uni year conprimse my "career"/job as a whole? By career i mean the job opportunities to "prestigious industries" and/or the possibility to do an (eventual) phd.
2) I still have difficulties deciding between physics or engineering path because where I live there is no Engineering Physics nor Applied Physics so I have to just pick one or another and compromise. The job market is terrible where I live and I am really afraid that picking up physics wouldn't be the wisest of choices, even if I like it. I like exploring math and physics in the most rigorous way, yet as I got informed I am also curious about building circuits for rockets/medical devices/cars/satellites/quantum technologies.
Do you think I fall more in the physics or engineering spectrum? (I am really struggling in understanding this so maybe a comparison would help me in a clearer way)
3) Should I change university for my next years ? Due to my health problems I can't go very far, but there is another uni "near" where I live that could be an alternative option.
In the end, I am just trying to understand what is the best decision for me and for my future.
I am willing to work very hard and smart to "catch up" but I really need to hear someone's opinion on this or else I think I could really break down.
Thank you for all the people that will have the patience to read and answer this.