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oahz
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i think i might possibly be the most confused person alive.
i am not even sure if i enjoy math, let alone if i was smart enough to go that route.
i was never in any sort of academic environment during my developmental elementary years.
from high school to the every end of college i was bug with social, family, and health issues that completely deflected my focus away from school and the academics.
i have a BA in math, but only chose to major in math after I failed at architecture. math was the path of least resistance.
i found math to be secure, absolute. i was never good at subjects like english because everything is just an opinion---and i never had any confidence in my opinions.
my mom is an uneducated peasant. she has an inferiority complex. from the age of 4-8, i was without my dad.
in these crucial years i believe i too developed an inferiority complex. I've since always had self-doubt in everything that i did.
ever since i decided to major in math, I've gradually valued math as a mean to validate myself, to prove my intelligence.
but i never got to enjoy it, i never enjoyed anything during college for that matter.
as i stated, i was sick and distracted during college. in the back of my mind, though, I've still had fears and aspirations for the future which was the reason i did all i can to get my A's and get my degree.
sadly, any average person can get a math BA. what does it take to get a math phD?
i am not even sure if i enjoy math, let alone if i was smart enough to go that route.
i was never in any sort of academic environment during my developmental elementary years.
from high school to the every end of college i was bug with social, family, and health issues that completely deflected my focus away from school and the academics.
i have a BA in math, but only chose to major in math after I failed at architecture. math was the path of least resistance.
i found math to be secure, absolute. i was never good at subjects like english because everything is just an opinion---and i never had any confidence in my opinions.
my mom is an uneducated peasant. she has an inferiority complex. from the age of 4-8, i was without my dad.
in these crucial years i believe i too developed an inferiority complex. I've since always had self-doubt in everything that i did.
ever since i decided to major in math, I've gradually valued math as a mean to validate myself, to prove my intelligence.
but i never got to enjoy it, i never enjoyed anything during college for that matter.
as i stated, i was sick and distracted during college. in the back of my mind, though, I've still had fears and aspirations for the future which was the reason i did all i can to get my A's and get my degree.
sadly, any average person can get a math BA. what does it take to get a math phD?