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Pipsqueakalchemist
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So to give context, I'm going to be graduating from University this year with a mech engineering degree. And to give further context, I was a flunk in high school, only took serious in grade 12 because that's when things got serious. I picked science because all my friend took it, then switched to Engineering. The first 2 years of Engineering were pretty good and I had close to a 4.0 gpa and I initially was planning to go to grad school for physics.
But the last 2-3 years I kinda dropped the ball. My GPA now is at a 2.9. It's weird because I would study hard but I wouldn't succeed on tests like I did in the first 2 years of Engineering. Kinda started to slowly shatter my confidence and I had stopped caring for grades and started to kinda flunk because Grad school wasn't going to happen.
Luckily the last year I found a new passion in programming and have worked really in self teaching myself comp sci/programming. Like 40 - 50 hours for last year. I basically stopped caring about my school work and instead poured all my time into programming. I realized I should've software engineering instead of mech. So I've been quite happy recently and reinvigorated with passion for programming specifically machine learning and game dev.
But I recently was thinking about how most great scientist like Einstein, Feynman, Newton, Hawkings, etc. They all were overachievers in school and graduated from prestigious university. I was thinking how could I possibly compete with kids who go to harder and more prestigious universities when I go to an average one that give easier test and workload but I still have a trash gpa. Basically I feel kinda insecure that I'm not one those kids who went to a top university and got 90s. It's kinda making me doubt my ability to achieve anything in STEM. I feel like I'll always be what I've been all my life and that is average at best.
Sorry for long, directionless paragraphs, just needed to get this off my chest.
But the last 2-3 years I kinda dropped the ball. My GPA now is at a 2.9. It's weird because I would study hard but I wouldn't succeed on tests like I did in the first 2 years of Engineering. Kinda started to slowly shatter my confidence and I had stopped caring for grades and started to kinda flunk because Grad school wasn't going to happen.
Luckily the last year I found a new passion in programming and have worked really in self teaching myself comp sci/programming. Like 40 - 50 hours for last year. I basically stopped caring about my school work and instead poured all my time into programming. I realized I should've software engineering instead of mech. So I've been quite happy recently and reinvigorated with passion for programming specifically machine learning and game dev.
But I recently was thinking about how most great scientist like Einstein, Feynman, Newton, Hawkings, etc. They all were overachievers in school and graduated from prestigious university. I was thinking how could I possibly compete with kids who go to harder and more prestigious universities when I go to an average one that give easier test and workload but I still have a trash gpa. Basically I feel kinda insecure that I'm not one those kids who went to a top university and got 90s. It's kinda making me doubt my ability to achieve anything in STEM. I feel like I'll always be what I've been all my life and that is average at best.
Sorry for long, directionless paragraphs, just needed to get this off my chest.