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Hello, my name is Christopher.
At this moment, I've been deleting 10 opening lines to start out with, so I am just going to "go with the flow" of what I'm writing.
I have spent most of my life playing video games and aiming to become professional at them... Well that's not entirely true, but I suppose I'm in the mood for writing a self-biographi about my career choises.
Let's see... I was about 6-7 when I figured out I wanted to develop video games for companies like Blizzard. I spent all day, every day, playing video games infront of the computer. Now one day, I actually got up from my chair and went to the library to find a book about programming and I found a book about C++. I was about 10 at the time.
I had a hard time learning programming (took me about 2 years) because my reading is horrible. I get so easily distracted (and this is a part of my question, so bear with me) with mathematics, reading and thinking in general... Anyway, I learned C++, C, ASM, Java, HTML, PHP, ASP.NET, Visual Basics, Perl, Python, Javascript and probably some other things I've forgotten. So after learning all this, I figured i'd be able to make games. But when I got to about 12 I found out game development wasn't for me... No, I wanted to make eCommerence.
I kept learning all about computers and one day I met this guy on a Counter-Strike Server. He had a dutch friend who was just as much into computers as I was. He introduced us and we talked for months... We were the best friends, and we even figured we'd meet each other in real life.
My friend showed me a few tricks how to circumvent security on a Windows system. 2 years went by and at this point I was 14. I was well respected in the hacking community, and people really sought me for answers to many things. I even taught up a few people to become gurus at this, but all in all they became people that steal your creditcard, and wash you clean from money. I won't apologize for this, because in the end, they get caught and they are the ones that will be creating revolutionary computer security.
Anyway, I figured at this point i'd be a security analytic. I really didn't like the idea, because I hated/hate the US. government for having such superficial power. You see... I really love conspiracy theories and stuff like that. So my trust in any government is only a thought on a monday morning highway.
I got older and finished my exams in high school, and finally went to college. Here I took the IT-guideline. However this is where it all really began for me...
I started having physics classes and unlike in high school... THESE HAD EQUATIONS. I mean seriously, I tried solving an equation (extremely easy one) once all by myself (remember, I am a very stupid person) and I felt the adrenaline pumping through my body. I felt electrified and I wanted to keep doing it. I've recently gotten to my mid-year (2.G, and you stop after 3.G) and I fail every test we have. I am stupid like hell I admit... and I have been scanning google for a solution to this.
My *ultimate* dream is to work within the fields of quantum mechanics. But if I can't work within that field, my dream will continuously be to learn everything about it. And this is a problem for me.
I get easily distracted as I mentioned, but if we just look past this.
I want to get smart at mathematics and physics. But my biggest problem is math... Yesterday my boss at work (I work at a small supermarket) asked me to put 1.25*16 + 20.0 together, and I just blanked out.
I really hope someone can help me with this problem... If I didn't simplify it enough, just tell me and I will answer any question you have. Again, my question is how do I improve my ridiculous logics and mathematical thinking?
At this moment, I've been deleting 10 opening lines to start out with, so I am just going to "go with the flow" of what I'm writing.
I have spent most of my life playing video games and aiming to become professional at them... Well that's not entirely true, but I suppose I'm in the mood for writing a self-biographi about my career choises.
Let's see... I was about 6-7 when I figured out I wanted to develop video games for companies like Blizzard. I spent all day, every day, playing video games infront of the computer. Now one day, I actually got up from my chair and went to the library to find a book about programming and I found a book about C++. I was about 10 at the time.
I had a hard time learning programming (took me about 2 years) because my reading is horrible. I get so easily distracted (and this is a part of my question, so bear with me) with mathematics, reading and thinking in general... Anyway, I learned C++, C, ASM, Java, HTML, PHP, ASP.NET, Visual Basics, Perl, Python, Javascript and probably some other things I've forgotten. So after learning all this, I figured i'd be able to make games. But when I got to about 12 I found out game development wasn't for me... No, I wanted to make eCommerence.
I kept learning all about computers and one day I met this guy on a Counter-Strike Server. He had a dutch friend who was just as much into computers as I was. He introduced us and we talked for months... We were the best friends, and we even figured we'd meet each other in real life.
My friend showed me a few tricks how to circumvent security on a Windows system. 2 years went by and at this point I was 14. I was well respected in the hacking community, and people really sought me for answers to many things. I even taught up a few people to become gurus at this, but all in all they became people that steal your creditcard, and wash you clean from money. I won't apologize for this, because in the end, they get caught and they are the ones that will be creating revolutionary computer security.
Anyway, I figured at this point i'd be a security analytic. I really didn't like the idea, because I hated/hate the US. government for having such superficial power. You see... I really love conspiracy theories and stuff like that. So my trust in any government is only a thought on a monday morning highway.
I got older and finished my exams in high school, and finally went to college. Here I took the IT-guideline. However this is where it all really began for me...
I started having physics classes and unlike in high school... THESE HAD EQUATIONS. I mean seriously, I tried solving an equation (extremely easy one) once all by myself (remember, I am a very stupid person) and I felt the adrenaline pumping through my body. I felt electrified and I wanted to keep doing it. I've recently gotten to my mid-year (2.G, and you stop after 3.G) and I fail every test we have. I am stupid like hell I admit... and I have been scanning google for a solution to this.
My *ultimate* dream is to work within the fields of quantum mechanics. But if I can't work within that field, my dream will continuously be to learn everything about it. And this is a problem for me.
I get easily distracted as I mentioned, but if we just look past this.
I want to get smart at mathematics and physics. But my biggest problem is math... Yesterday my boss at work (I work at a small supermarket) asked me to put 1.25*16 + 20.0 together, and I just blanked out.
I really hope someone can help me with this problem... If I didn't simplify it enough, just tell me and I will answer any question you have. Again, my question is how do I improve my ridiculous logics and mathematical thinking?