- #36
CosmicKitten
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I live in a group home for mentally retarded people. My social worker is incompetent and does not even want me in college. I at least have the freedom to study whatever I want all day and I do even though it means cutting down on other things I like to do like fan fiction and making videos and even though I have the time it kills me that I cannot concentrate on studying, working through problems or whatever for 12 hours straight. Even while I read my mind will be thinking of something else and I will finish the passage and realize it was all a feat of hyperlexia. The noise in my mind is louder than what the teachers say. I have a problem with interrupting without even thinking about it when I am talking and the same goes with my thinking, I sometimes listen to only part of a lecture (now it's a really good day when I AM listening) or reading part of a book when my mind sort of autocompletes it, even though I know it would encourage those bad traits you speak of in normal people, I think with my kind of autocompleting mind I would probably benefit just from being given the equations straight off the bat because if I have to search or whatever my mind will wander off and that isn't very efficient. I didn't like that in school though I was expected to just memorize the equations or write them on a sheet and not think about more advanced stuff (which I really process better in my head than when I'm in social mode, when I'm talking I'm not listening and often not thinking) and that's part of why I quit. I don't know what to do now, I wonder if I could get into a private school on an art scholarship and then switch majors or would they not allow that?